Sunday, November 16, 2008

How I Found Out I Was Pregnant: A Story.

After a summer of traveling halfway across the world (to Cambodia) and back ALONE with a baby, then crossing the U.S. a couple of times to see some family and then move back out east, it was no wonder that I felt tired during the first couple of weeks we lived here. As the weeks turned into months, and the fatigue persisted, the thought crossed my mind, "I haven't felt this tired since... I was pregnant with Carson!" That thought was quickly pushed out of my mind, as there was no way I could be pregnant again.

And then, it became difficult to button my pants. Unfortunately, "Rick, I'm getting fat" is a pretty common declaration in our house, so he and I paid little attention to my seemingly expanding waistline. I kept exercising and, again, pushed any nagging thoughts of a possible pregnancy out of my mind.

And then finally, the day arrived in early September when something inside of me clicked, and suddently I knew why I couldn't keep my eyes open after 8:00 p.m., and why I couldn't button my pants without lying on the floor and sucking in with all my might, and why I was having a hard time producing enough milk for poor little Carson.

That day, I pushed Carson up some nice hills for the 1.5 mile jog to the library. He and I went pretty much everywhere with the jogging stroller in those days. I was excited to check out a book that I'd had on hold, and I had some items to return.

"That will be a 10 dollar late fee," the librarian demanded. I froze. 10 dollars??? After a little discussion about why on earth I owed 10 dollars for a DVD I didn't even watch and had no idea that was late, I was forced to pay the fee. As I dug in my wallet for some bills and loose change, my eyes started to fill with tears. I quickly shoved the money towards the librarian, checked out my book, and ran out of the library, trying to stifle the sobs before they all broke loose. I bent down to make sure Carson was buckled in (and to hide my wet face from public view), and suddenly, it hit me.

I was crying. Hard. Over a late fee from the library.


I had to be pregnant.


The end. Except it's really the beginning I guess, because a week later I had an ultrasound which revealed that I had actually been pregnant for nearly 3 months, without anyone bothering to let me know there was a baby growing inside of me. Now I'm 5 months pregnant, one appendix less, looking like I'm about 8 months pregnant, and we're excited to have 2 little boys who we hope and pray will be best friends. The real end.

8 comments:

JenSwen said...

You know I love this story - especially the tears over the late fee that led to your epiphany. So great. Plus, who doesn't want to skip their first trimester?

I KNOW you don't look 8 months pregnant. Come on. I bet you didn't post a picture of yourself because you knew it would prove you wrong. I dare you to do it.

Your boys will be the cutest buddies.

Salem said...

What a crazy story!!! That is like my dream...to not know until that far along!!! And I'm sure your boys will love eachother...how fun?!! You may need a new jogger, though!

Erika and Ryan said...

This brought back memories of when I found out I was pregnant with my 4th. My 3rd was only 6 months old at the time and I was still breastfeeding, so naturally I was shocked when I found out. I remember calling my mom to tell her the news and I started crying...not tears of joy...I was scared! I was still adjusting to having 3, and couldn't possibly imagine having 4 so soon! But I am so glad now that I did. And yes, my 2 younger ones are good friends and play really well together, so as hard as it is, great blessings and happiness will come from it! You'll be great.

Jewels said...

Hey that's a funny coincidence because that's about how it happened for me too! I was getting so frustrated trying to eat less, when it seemed that I just couldn't. I was so upset one fast Sunday because I couldn't even go 3 hours without thinking I was starving to death! And I just kept getting bigger and bigger! I was just in denial about a month more than you were! What a surprise huh? When are you due?

Kim said...

Page congrats on being pregnant! Hey better to be too fertile then not fertile! Post a picture of yourself! Also, I don't have your number since you lost your phone before Cambodia.. email it to me PLEASE! kimcrane@gmail.com!

Barbaloot said...

Love the story---and congrats! I'm excited for you. I wish I could blame my inability to button my pants on pregnancy. But I am 100% sure that's not why:)

Davis and Laura said...

So I wish I was 3 months pregnant and didn't know it. Um, anyways...I got your question on my beauty blog and instead of writing a post for it I just answered the question through a comment. Its on the same post that you put your comment on, did that make sense? Anways.

Salem said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CARSON TODAY!!!!